katlefiya's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Revenge of the Dirty Needle I feel like I might be losing a little bit of perspective. Ok, no, I feel like I have no idea what the hell I'm doing and I'm dragging everybody down with me as I kick and scream in this torrential spiral. I just don't know what to do. Everything I try to do is wrong. I can't get back together with him because it's over and he's not the one and I know that I can never be truly happy with him. But on the other hand I truly was happy with him and now that I've successfully chased him away I'm completely and utterly miserable. I just need time. We only broke up for the last time a few weeks ago. I haven't been this heart-broken since high school and I'd forgotten how much it SUCKS. At least I never question if I made the right decision. But if I know I made the right decision then why am I acting like such a fool? I always looked down on people who did this, who pined and connived and obsessed and couldn't see how much of an idiot they were acting. I can see myself doing these stupid things but I CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM DOING THEM. 11:43 a.m. - 2008-11-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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