katlefiya's Diaryland Diary

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blast from past

Here's a blast from the past - msn conversation from Spring 2005.

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hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
evening
Kat says:
boucher?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
the only one. hi
Kat says:
you still alive? or have you come back to haunt me...digitally
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
alive would be the proper term.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
haunting. im big on haunting those from the past. sure. why not
Kat says:
when are you coming back to calgary?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
less than 2 weeks.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
finallyu
Kat says:
sweet.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
long time no chit chat. hows life?
Kat says:
good. I'm quitting my job, moving back in with my parents and going to university.
Kat says:
or college, I haven't decided yet.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
so i read. im making a return to the uni in september myself. its been missed
Kat says:
really! what are you gonna take?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
religous studies. ive been taking it for almost 2 years now. kinda. my university career has been a shamble ..
Kat says:
sweet. I'm maybe gonna take religious studies and applied ethics, but you probably read that already.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
yuppers. the internet allows me to keep tabs on everyone. sorta.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
how was overseas?
Kat says:
interesting.
Kat says:
and fucked up. but I figured a lot of shit out.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
figuring shit out helps a lot. being alone for a winter has given me way too much contemplation time.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i would have rather done my contemplation somewhere other than here though
Kat says:
you're already too much of a contemplative person. everybody tells you you think too much, right?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i keep most of it in now.
Kat says:
is that altogether healthy?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
compared to the way it was before with my excessiveness i would like to think so. yes. but i havent really been able to see what im like around ppl. my 2 weekends back in the city were blurry.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im not sure what healthy is anymore.
Kat says:
it seems like you're constantly trying to detox your soul, have you ever tried your body?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
being up here made it mandatory.
Kat says:
no beer!!?!?!
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
physically im the best shape ive ever been in.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
no desire to drink when im up here
Kat says:
impressed.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
its very much a social thing
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im planning on taking kickboxing once school starts up. im finally moving the hell out of sandras basement too.
Kat says:
were you living with your "mom and dad" in lac la biche?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
grandma and grandpa basement yup.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hell
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
nice enough and comfortable.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
but ive grown used to .. calgary i guess.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
this place makes me cringe
Kat says:
someday you'll move to toronto or something and calgary will be too small. that is my prediction.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i dont think aboot where im going to end up much. im more focused right now on having a good time and my educaton.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
education.
Kat says:
edjumucation
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
exactamly
Kat says:
tee hee.
Kat says:
have you see www.endofworld.net?
Kat says:
with the little world map, and the bombs?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im going to now
Kat says:
dooo itt nowwwww biyatch!
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
lol ok
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
whats going on eh?
Kat says:
AHHHHHH MOTHERLAND!
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
very enjoyable. thanks.
Kat says:
my pleasuuuure
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im chuckling and the kids at the computer next to me are looking at me like wtf?!
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
fuck i hate this plae
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
place
Kat says:
I hope you had head phones
Kat says:
or have
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
oh yeah.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
a brief change from the nin
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im gonna see trent!
Kat says:
they're playing in calgary?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
unless ya know, the world ends
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i wish
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im driving to california to see them
Kat says:
van?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
and lots of others
Kat says:
holy shit.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i sold the van actually
Kat says:
I meant vancouver
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
it was a 83 dodge ram van actually. an old ambulance
Kat says:
sweet. didn't you say you were buying a truck?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
no. california. coachella
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
jeep
Kat says:
cool
Kat says:
starting to be good weather for it
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i already have a truck. but its a piece and i dont drive it
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
in something like 10 days my summer starts
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
and it doesnt end until school
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im basically pegging this as my last "i like to get fucked up and do fucked up shit " summer
Kat says:
why were you up north anyway?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
work
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
to pay for university
Kat says:
ah
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
and pay off some of my large debt from school
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
to get my head on straight. shit was getting crazy last summer and i needed to run away and sort my mind out
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i sent my best friend to rehab for a meth addiction
Kat says:
jesus.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
yeah.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i wasnt involved in that . ( meth = death ) but i did send him to rehab
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
he was fucking up again once he got out. but then he knocked some girl up and now he is all clean. im glad he knocked her up, because i wasnt able to save him myself
Kat says:
I'm glad he woke up for that.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
they both did. she was a methhead too.
Kat says:
wow
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
yeah
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
kids scare me.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im going to be uncle bastard!
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
heh
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i talk to u like i havent stopped.
Kat says:
how do you mean?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i ramble and talk mindless. with most folk i kinda freeze up.
Kat says:
really? I thought you were like this with everybody?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
when i was back in the city i didnt have much to say to ppl. all i had was " ummm, ive been in the bush for 6 months"
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
not at all
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
shy
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
sorta.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
its fucked. just like me.
Kat says:
there are no simples answers to you. you're too complicated.
Kat says:
did you know that canada has a "National Homelessness Initiative?" you couldn't tell by looking at it.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hrm.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i believe i live in the best and simultaniously worst place on earth.
Kat says:
explain
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
freedom and excessiveness.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
we have it all and thats the problem
Kat says:
we abuse it.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
its not so much abuse as it is bred into us. were bred to consume.
Kat says:
but since you know that consumerism is bred in to you, do you fight it? or believe you can?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i fight it as much as my excessiveness allows me too.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i try to make the world better by making myself and those around me more aware.
Kat says:
wisdom is know what to do, virtue is doing it.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hrm
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i dont focus my energies on the destruction of consumerism though. i try to focus more on ideas like community
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
being up here has very much stunted my activity in my community.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hrm
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hi. im chris. i like dancing, sunsets and religion.
Kat says:
hi, I'm kat. i like melting glass, cats and expanding my talents.
Kat says:
and swamps.
Kat says:
swamps rock.
Kat says:
admit it, you love 'em too
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
swamps are awesome. i spent most of my winter in the middle of destroyed swamps
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hrm.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i am in almost every way opposed to the oil and gas industry yet i have now twice taken time from school to work in the oil and gas industry to pay for my education.
Kat says:
don't you believe that the industry can do SOME good? don't they have some beneficial programs?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
of course. but in the end i see the pillaging of the earth for our consumption to be disgusting.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i have faith in human invention to overcome our greed but at what price?
Kat says:
it's no use contemplating it, you must go out and do something.
Kat says:
virtue, remember?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i had briefly decided to go back into environmental sciences to make a difference. but i think i can do more good through religion
Kat says:
how?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
it is that which most divides us as well as that which brings us together. salvation lies within the ways of sin
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i believe we have sold our souls for a new pair of jeans
Kat says:
don't you think you're focusing too much on mainstream western society? sure, it influences everybody, but it's not the universe.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i think that your underestimating the power of western society. i see our decadant western lifestyle eroding its way through all sections of humanity.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
were living in an instant world.
Kat says:
but have you ever seen anything BUT western society?
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i know that places like africa ( poor poor africa )
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i, personally have not. no.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
are still unscathed. but thats only because we abuse the power systems we have put in place
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i fear the erosion of culture is a worldwide phenomenom.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
were simply at the forefront
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im not big on his politics, but ronald reagan said it best . ( not a direct quote ) " we will only come together when the aliens come"
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
blah
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
too many thoughts to express on comptuer
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
im digressing from whatever point i had. if any
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
i feel that religion is a convient way to bring people together for a common good
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
that being our salvation from ourselves
Kat says:
but religion is not universal. not everybody celebrates, and if they do, not all in the same way.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
hard to word. we all have in ourselves the same basic physical brain structure. it is wired as such that with prayer, meditation, song, dance, etc. an overflow occurs in the hypothalamus ( sp? ) and we experience the same basic bliss regardless of our worldly beliefs. it is simply clouded by our preconcieved notions of our faith, or lack thereof.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
to tap into that evolutionary quick is the goal
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
religion does it better than any other means.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
thats so dumbed down. . sorry. i have a lot of trouble explaining it.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
were all connected into the same ball of energy, and we simply misinterpret it as god, or allah, or enlightenment. we have to realize it is our humanity.
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
fuckin fuck
hi, im chris. who the fuck are you? says:
computer time is up.
Kat says:
we should talk about it whenever next we meet.

12:27 p.m. - 2008-04-03

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