katlefiya's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Everything WAS fine. Fuck fuck fuck. I have very recently discovered that my perfect little life and all my perfect little friends are not so perfect after all. People I thought were in control I now realize are spinning out in a very bad way. And they're trying to WARN ME. This last month has been the embodiment of everything that you think is good but is really very very bad. Sheep in wolf's clothing. I'm covered in bruises, bite marks and scratches. I'm getting constant nose bleeds. I hack up indescribably substances that are glued to the inside of my lungs. My brain is surrounded by fog. My creativity is on hold. There is a distinct possibility I might be pregnant. It's not so much that I'm dragging people down with me, but we all seem to be dragging each other down together. And until a couple of days ago I thought everything was just fine and dandy, just a little fun. This is a very rude awakening. A required awakening. I am stopping right now. I am going to heed the advice of the people who are telling me to stop now, before it's too late. I will take responsibility for my own decisions and actions. I just fucking hope that I can help those friends of mine that are sinking into that black hole, too. I just can't believe I thought everything was fine. 4:34 p.m. - 2007-12-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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