katlefiya's Diaryland Diary

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Vomit! Bile! Mucous!

Wow, super busy-ness. And yet I still find time to procrastinate and write an entry.

I'm so confused lately. It seems that all my problems just get more confusing the more I think about them. I used to be such a naturally happy person, but lately I just can't do it. The stupidest, little things just make everything feel so pointless.
And the people I need to talk about it with the most won't listen.

I've been making sacrifices and extra efforts for people who want things for the wrong reasons. I know that it's wrong, and I should do my own things for my own reasons. But maybe there's a way to compromise, do what they want, but for my own reasons. It's a head space I need to get into, but I have so much to do. Boo.

I've decided to start smoking pot again. Maybe that'll get me out of the rut? Or maybe I should stop relying on chemical substances to make me the person I want be.
If you don't like yourself, is it so bad to try and change?
I guess it all depends on motives.

SO MUCH WAFFLING!!!!!
just stop spinning on your axis, it'll make you nauseous.
At what point will enough be enough? Are you in pain because it just doesn't fit?
Vomit! Bile! Mucous!
Fuck you all.

10:45 p.m. - 2005-11-16

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